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No one to turn to...

Does the person i love really love me back?  she says it.. but i can not feel it.

she seems more interested in other guys than with me..

i want to give up, and return back to me.

Really... gone.

There are two views to my story....

Where were you when I needed you most?

Omarion - Ice Box

Fussin' and fightin', we back at it again
I know that, it's my fault, but you don't understand (no)
I got memories, this is crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my niggas
I should try, truth is I wanna let u in, but no
Damn these memories, and it's crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know

Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

Why can't I get it right, just can't let it go
I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no more
I got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it
'Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

Live Forever -

"Then we both walked to the window
I pulled it shut and started staring at the sky
I wiped a couple tears away then we looked at each other
and I could see the stars twinkle in her eyes
I told her about the couple I saw earlier
she said I'm sure they were cute but they're no you and I"


More lyrics i can relate to..  Everyone wishes for someone to believe in them.. 

Moving Mountains Lyrics:

It's like whatever I say
Ooh
I Just can't get through you
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh

Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Why just leave me, just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, Be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

She, she don't touch me, I don't touch her
We aint really even ever say a word.
I really want to give her everything she deserves
But, the bad took away the good
She thinks that I'm full of it, arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying
You never believe me when I say, and I never believe it when you say
I love you, and I shouldn't complain about it
I should take it like a man and walk up out it
Cause we will never be the same ooh
I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flames

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain, yeah
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

[Background singing]
This must be a slow death,
that i'm travelin' on.
It feels so wrong, i'm
barely holdin' on
See, no matter what it takes
i've gotta get it together.

And these hills that im travelin' up
She ain't showin' me love
I'm down on my love

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me, be
Just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me, be
Why you just leave me, just leave me be ooh

Cici sleeping, while i wake up O.,o  Reversed role..    I will see the doctor today for check-up, scared about bad news again, hopefully good news this time.  Test at night................... x.,x  

Must study now.

Test Test Test


Study, bored,,,,,